Night of May 23, 2009

Usually I am a very light sleeper. If I breath too loud I wake up, if I roll over I wake up, if someone 3 blocks away sneezes I wake up. Last night I really conked out. I had another dream that someone was in the apartment ...

I could have sworn I was awake, which made things all that much scarier. I could hear someone out in the living room and then a dark male figure entered the bedroom, pausing at the foot of the bed. He then proceeded to climb over me and lay down beside me. I can feel the weight of someone else on the bed. I laid there rigid and kept trying to reassure myself that I was not awake. I then started to think of ways to escape should the need arise.

For some reason I think it would be a good idea to pin this person's head to the pillows in an attempt to smother them...it would be self defense right? As I lay my hands on their head I feel and feel the closely shorn hair I think that it might be Boyfriend. But in the back of my mind I know that can't be because Boyfriend is in California. I start to panic and push the person's head in the pillow and am met with no resistance. Things feel too soft. Then I wake up. I am on Boyfriend's side of the bed trying to smother his pillow with another pillow.

Night of May 2, 2009

This dream made no sense... The dream is in black and white and I am a nanny for Brad and Angelina (yes that Brad and Angelina). Only they did not have six kids, just two, a boy who was 4 and a girl who was 2. We are all staying in a hotel suite somewhere. Although he looks healthy, Brad is in need of a new kidney. Angelina wants to give him one of hers but she is not a match. This makes her very unhappy and she is angry that Brad will not take her kidney anyway. For some reason I have been tested and am a match. This makes Angelina even more angry because she is the mother of his children and I am just a nanny. Brad tries to sweet talk me into giving him one of my kidneys while Angelina tries to talk me out of it. A lot of arguing ensues. During one of these arguments Angelina throws out the statement that "If Brad was a better actor he would not need a kidney and he would have an Oscar". Ummmmm...okay. I tell them I need to think about it and I take the kids swimming. In the end I keep my kidney.

Night of April 20, 2009

Boyfriend has been sick and the sound of him breathing was keeping me awake, so I spent half the night on the couch. I had three dreams that all started out the same...I was laying on the couch in the dark, and I would hear someone trying to open the front door... In the first dream the person has keys and enters. It is a man and as he rounds from the hall way into the living room I turn to him and tell him he is not supposed to be here. The dream ends as I wake up with a start. The second dream I hear the front door open and I know someone is in the apartment but I can not see or hear them. Then a small child walks around the chair towards me. As I try to push myself up into a sitting position the child climbs up onto the couch and sits on my stomach. I can feel the weight of the child on top of me. I tell the child that they are not supposed to be there. The child just stares at me and says "yes I am". I start to scream for Boyfriend and the dream ends when I scream myself awake. The third dream again starts with someone entering the apartment. He flips on the lights, looks at me and tells me I am not supposed to be there. I ask what he is doing in my apartment and he tell me he is filling it with roses as surprise for me from Boyfriend. So I sit back and let him continue with his work. This is a dream I can handle.